Weirdly Formatted Poem

Ok this might be a little cringy because this is my first time playing around with weird formatting in a poem. Well there was the time I wrote a concrete poem, but that was more straightforward. 

So before I get started I just have to say that Goodreads always messes up the formatting of my blog posts, so it is better to view my blog on the actual URL which is freyathefrypan.blogspot.com rather than the embedded blog on Goodreads.

Anyway here it goes. This poem is called "sometimes." 

Sometimes

i can only think in absolutes
i can only jump to the extremes
i can only see the world in terms of good and evil
two opposing forces underlying reality
                                                                                                                  
                                                   and when i try to see the grays 
                                                   it strains my dull mind 
                                                   it exerts me to my limit 
                                                   it tortures me

so when you said you would leave
i erased your memory 
committed it to the flames
so that it wouldn't hurt 
but it makes my poor mind scream inside 
and my heart shatters 
to know that you are not completely gone 

you are neither here... 
                                                    ... nor there 

I am begging you to either leave or stay because my mind can't understand the mixed feelings. My mind can comprehend the words "forever" and "never" but when you introduce "sometimes," my world falls apart.