Random Update

Damn, I haven't posted on this blog in so long. But I want to make sure it doesn't die, even though no one reads it. Allow me to entertain you with some cringe poems I wrote. Back in February, I took a stab at writing a poetry chapbook. The common theme that unified the poems was simply school (and the theme of being a stressed student) because that was the only thing I knew. Boring theme, right? But there was literally nothing else in my life to write about. Even though I spend a lot of time writing poetry, I will never claim to be good at it. I get rejected by most publications I submit to. I think I need to basically keep revising old poems and cut out stuff from them so they can become as concise as possible and have somewhat of a flow to them. Anyways, I was going to share a few poems from the chapbook but now that I am going through it again for this blog post, I can't really read it without cringing. I've outgrown it. No wonder the chapbook contest I submitted it to rejected it. 

Instead, I guess I'll share a different poem I wrote. I wrote this one recently. I'm trying to come up with a title for it. Maybe just "limerence." 

Limerence 

The holy men in their black robes 

Seem to sing with one voice to their god 

Do you remember when I said you have Elysian eyes

Making you blush? 

Everything about you,

I would applaud

But they reserve such passionate words for the Lord 

For Him, there is no pain they will not endure, 

But they say Love has made me an idolater 

Those who would harm themselves in the name of God are seen as pious men 

But when I say I would do it for Love,

It is insanity to them 

I think this one is mid. Good enough to post on Instagram. And perhaps I will do that later. Perhaps I will do some kind of instapoetry dump. I haven't done one in a long time. My Instagram is @snekcoatl if you guys want to follow it. 

Anyways, how about a general update on how I'm doing?

My mental health has been kinda bonkers. Not the worst its ever been, but still pretty bad. I really hope it gets better soon. I'm in therapy. I really don't feel like myself right now. I feel like I'm not being productive enough. I normally get really creative over the summer and do all kinds of stuff, but I haven't really been pursuing my hobbies the way I used to. 

that's all for today :( bye